So I nursed Jacob for the last time today. I have been weaning him off of the breast milk and onto formula for the past two weeks. I took a feeding away every two to three days. I started with the feedings that he didnt really care about like the 1:00 p.m. feeding or the 5:00 p.m. feeding and eventually ended with today. I knew it was going to be hard but I didnt think it was going to be this hard emotionally. I am a crying wreck right now. I read that sometimes babies feel neglected throughout the weaning process and that is the last thing that I want Jacob to feel. It hurts me inside that he could feel that way. Maybe this is why he has been a little fussier lately. I decided to quit breastfeeding because I am going back to work in a week and it will be easier for Nate and I if Jacob is on formula.
It is very hard to pump at work and since Jacob is staying at home with Nate during the day while I am at work, it just seems like the best decision. However I am very happy with myself that I made it this long. About a month into breastfeeding I was about to quit. It hurt so bad and I was so annoyed that this was what my life had become. I was nursing all the time and hated it. I pulled myself to together and stuck it out for Jacob's sake and that was one of the best decisions. I hope Jacob and I can still have the bond like we did when I was nursing him. I try to keep eye contact with him while I am feeding him the bottle but its not the same. I hope it gets better and I dont regret my decision. Any advice from anyone would be appreciated!
It will take a couple of days for my milk to dry up and its going to hurt so bad. I read that you can get a fever and the shakes during this process. I hope it goes by fast and its not too bad. This weekend is going to be emotional but I am glad that I have Nate supporting me on this decision and can go to him when I am feeling down about this.